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'Me'

Went into a school today as a visitor. I was there all day, and you know it made me feel really old! Being 11-16 seems like so long ago, and I feel so far removed now for where I was then. It really makes me question who I am. Wait a minute! Before you think I’m getting all hippy-fied I’m NOT going to go off and hug a tree or anything, honestly! I’m not planning on running to India to find myself, nor do I plan to go sit in a cave in the mountains and meditate till I become one with the cosmos. I just mean that I associate who I am – the ‘me’ – with the exact shape, size, weight, intelligence, and knowledge levels that I currently hold. When I was sixteen years old I did the same, yet my knowledge levels, intelligence and certainly weight and size were very different (!). In the future as I change, I will change my understanding of ‘me’ to whatever physical state I am in at that point. So through all this constant change – and change is constant – where is the ‘me’? I am physically a different being now than I was when I began typing this post. Atoms have moved, food has been digested, millions of my cells have died and been processed and millions more have come into creation. So the ‘me’ that I was so sure I was 10 seconds ago no longer exists… so who am I? What is there that is consistent through this that will still be there when I’m 90 years old? This is all a but too much, I think I might have pushed things a little far! Sorry, maybe I’ll go down the pub, that’ll answer all my questions!